this mess of sadness and phobias

[in the house on the beach] I really should go! I've gotta catch my ride.
- So go.
- I did. I thought maybe you were a nut... but you were exciting.
- I wish you had stayed.
- I wish I had stayed too. NOW I wish I had stayed. I wish I had done a lot of things. I wish I had... I wish I had stayed. I do.
- Well I came back downstairs and you were gone!
- I walked out, I walked out the door!
- Why?
- I don't know. I felt like I was a scared little kid, I was like... it was above my head, I don't know.
- You were scared?
- Yeah. I thought you knew that about me. I ran back to the bonfire, trying to outrun my humiliation.
- Was it something I said?
- Yeah, you said "so go." With such disdain, you know?
- Oh, I'm sorry.
- It's okay.
[Walking Out]
- Joely? What if you stayed this time?
- I walked out the door. There's no memory left.
- Come back and make up a good-bye at least. Let's pretend we had one.
[Joel comes back]
- Bye Joel.
- I love you...
- Meet me in Montauk.